hmmm. this is familiar. i started a blog a few years ago, and man oh man has my life changed since that. i don't really know why i'm starting another blog, i think its mostly for my own therapy or something.
four years ago i started a blog as i was about to get married. i was so excited and full of hope for what the future held for me and my future husband. now i sit here, on my parents couch, starting a blog again. this time i am also full of hope and excitement for what the future holds for me, although i also have a very heavy heart. heavenly father certainly has a way of making sure i remember i am not the one in charge, but rather he is. i don't know when i will ever learn that lesson, probably never, but he will keep teaching me.
i never in a bazillion years thought i would be in the situation i am now. i never thought i would be the divorced one. that freaking d-word. sheesh. me? seriously? but at the same time, i'm not totally surprised. i really believe it's some of our hardest times that make us grow the most, and i also believe god has been preparing me for this new phase of my life, whether i knew it or not. i never thought i would have had so much heartache, and caused so much. i guess no one ever does think that, though. i am a perpetual optimist, and i always look on the bright side of life, but right now i can genuinely say life has sucked a big one this past year. there has been a lot of good, a lot of support and a lot of love. but there has been a lot of suck, too. but i can honestly say i am a much stronger person now, and will continue to grow stronger as i go throughout my life as a single girl. but now i start this new blog, as i am now starting my new life. so here we go again. let's see what wild ride i'm in store for now :) i promise to not be so depressing in future posts.
